Favourite Leave Destination: Hospitals.

Things since i started clearing my leave hadnt been going well...

My daily life had been cluttered and occupied by late nights (which i cant sleep...), oversleeping, visiting of hospitals, and some random working on my impt stuff...

Typical day lately had been:

Sleep ard 5am after playing FIFA Manager or due to inability to fall asleep, wake up around 3pm/4pm, maybe eat lunch, change clothes and visit my grandmother whom is currently in ICU (she went for a heart surgery, although the surgery is successful, she somehow caught infection on other part of her body and she also got stroke, so went for another surgery to drain excess fluid from her brain, now recovering well in ICU), and then either go out for 2-3 hours or go straight home with my family, and then probably play game again due to no mood, and the cycle goes again....

So its pretty shitty... Got some work done, but its really very little considering the amount of time had past... I really need to step up to the game and focus more......... and then my gf got warded into the hospital.

My grandmother is in NUH (National University Hospital) and Raine in TTSH (Tan Tock Seng Hospital). Perfect.

So 2 impt kins are both warded but in separate hospital, sianz... but Raine somehow requires me more, since my granny got my other family members to look after, while Raine kindda only had me on the immediate.

So now, I am typing this blog post at United Square @ Novena, near Tan Tock Seng Hospital, waiting for the visiting hours to open.

So, faced with all these difficulties and ad hoc attention drainer, I still have to buck up my effort to quickly finish a first draft off my biz plan, so at least i can go seek for fundings....

Its me against the world now.

The Dynamics of Advice & Recommendation

Have you been in a situation that, you do not know something, and you decided to ask someone abt it? Well I do, and I guess, everyone else do.

But have you ever wondered abt the credibility of your friends' advice and recommendations?

Lets put it this way, do you ever had someone who came over to you, and ask you for advice and recommendation? How did you react? How much thought did you go into the query before you shoot out an answer? Where did you answer originated?

I suddenly pondered upon this question while staring at Google search results of a list of possible candidates that I might wish to work with in the future, and then I realised that, if I had taken the "easy" way out, by simply asking a friend whom "work in the industry" or at least "have connections" or even "certain understanding"; whom would he/she recommend?

Perhaps, he/she may just recommend a company his/her friend in working in, or a company, is probably the only company he/she know which deals with the type of service i am looking for.

Just like, when my friends were ask abt "looking for a designer/design a website", they refer them to me. But, am I the right choice? Am I the BEST choice? You get the drift?

The danger of our curiousity, and easy trust in people, may put us in an disadvantage. Especially when a person like me, decides to start up or entrepreneur; every little detail counts. And the best part, if my friends refers ppl to me, and i cant provide the service to them; i probably wouldnt recommend them anyone else either. Because I dun want to be placed the blame when things go awry on my recommendation.

Interesting? Yeah~ Hellishly interesting...

99% firm.

after I went for a brief in camp yesterday... it supposed to be a determinator for whether i stay or i go. but somehow, even days before that, it seems like i had already decided on my choice.

even before looking at the main conditions that staying would have to comply had already starved off any step backs that i can make; the balancing act between the 2 life changing decision is one of unbalanced. perhaps heavens want to make a fool of me in bringing the revolution of my current workplace at a time so late; or perhaps heavens simply aiding me to make a straight forward choiceless choice.

with the retreat route looking ever meaningless and perhaps treacherously unrewarding, the only way left is forward as it seems. even the fork-tongue path in front of me, seemed to be biased towards one that brings abt a fulfilment of dreams; though both just as difficult.

1% still remains; a result of lack of savings. one great fundamental mistake, or i should say, self-inflicted difficulty; something anyone who want to start up should never make. well, its too late to talk abt that now.

that perhaps is another way, heaven intended me to have; a problem/crisis that i limits the amount of slack i can have, thus pushing me to max out my full potentials... while i have to recap to all that, humans have limitless potentials to accomplish great things.

haiz... worrying yet exciting.

i'm the harbinger of dreamz.

End of a walked path; Advent of a new journey.

Upon the first day of my long clearance of leaves; my days in the singapore armed forces, is probably, all but over.

i am already 95% decided, that this long walked path, i made for more than a fifth of my life, should now end. it had been a one of many missed opportunities, but also great transformation.

now, its time to look beyond current paradigm, and gaze across the horizon to see the world like never before. to do things that i am meant to do. for my name literally means engraved foundation. i believe, i am meant for greater things, and hopefully, what i do will set the foundation for future generations, for whatever my inspiration to other is: i hope its an inspiration for ppl "to dare to dream".

like my slogan for my future company, Advent Deviant: difference ; difference in the way we see things, do things and accomplish things , but also, to make a difference in ppl's life and the world.

thus the name Advent Deviant, signifies the coming of a deviant, a person/group of ppl, whom just refuse to do things the way everyone do it, and in turn, creates something extraordinary.

i'm blessed to be a singaporean, given limitless possibilities and freedom to chase my dreams, as opposed to most in other parts of the world. i must take this opportunity well, and hopefully, bring this blessed life to everyone around the world.